It appears that I may actually get to see my husband again sometime [relatively] soon! I'm not going to be overly excited, nor am I going to get my hopes up too high, about the latest news from Jeremy. However, my smile is brighter today, and my heart isn't quite so heavy. I am so very thankful for that!
This whole new chapter in my life has me all out of sorts. I know nothing about the military. They have this whole different way of life. They speak their own language. I don't understand 75% of what my husband says when he talks about work. Actually, that percentage may not even be high enough!
I'm moving to the other side of the world to be with Jeremy. There's nothing that I wouldn't do for him. I'm just worried about how I'm going to adjust to this new life. I'm going to be facing a whole bunch of new all at once. Because I am really nervous about all of this, I have started reading blogs. I have been seeking out blogs about the military, specifically those written by the wives.
I'm going to do a comparison for you: military wives' blogs are to a new military spouse what WebMD is to a hypochondriac. This is no exaggeration! And, just like any good hypochondriac, I can't stop reading them! I have read horror story after horror story! I have read all about how horrible these women are to each other. I have read all about pest-infested housing. I have read all about cheating husbands. (I should note here that I trust my husband completely. He'd never do that!) I have read all about cheating wives. (And, I should note here that I would never do that!) This is not to say that I haven't read some uplifting and inspiring stories as well. I have, of course.
Some of the blogs that I read just amaze me! Sometimes, though, the comments that follow are even more awful than the blog itself. People say anything in the comments! They curse, they name call, they talk about their husband's CO, the wife of the CO...they say things that even someone as new as I am knows better than to say! There are times that I enjoy reading the stuff, though. Sometimes these women really make me laugh! Take, for instance, the page on Facebook that I "like." A couple different wives have recently made some really awful comments on this page. I mean AWFUL! I remember thinking as I read one in particular I wonder who'd kill me first if I posted this: my husband or my momma! These comments didn't stay up very long, and the page itself didn't take them down, so my guess is someone's husband (or momma, but most likely husband) made sure the comments were taken down.
I feel like I'm headed into some kind of high school for adults. I didn't much care for high school the first time around. Teenagers are horrible! I don't want a redo of that! I love the show, Army Wives. One of the wives on a blog actually mentioned it the other day. She was talking about the relationships between spouses whose husbands have different ranks. She said, "We all know that it's not really like the love fest they portray on Army Wives." Of course, I know that this show is a complete work of fiction. I said I was new to the military, not plain stupid. However, I didn't need to see my favorite show ripped apart in black and white! This is what I mean by high school for adults, though. I don't miss all the clicks and mean girls and all the horrible stuff that goes along with high school!
Given some of the stuff that I've read, and stories I've heard first hand, I'm not really excited about making new friends on post. How sad is that? I guess my hope is that when I get there and start meeting people I'll find that it's not as bad as I feared it would be. And, what will I do if I get there and it is that awful? I would hope that even then I'd manage to find at least one friend, but given the fact that I've spent more time apart from my husband than with him, I don't think I would mind spending all my time with him! As for the times when I just can't pull him away from his computer and I'm dying to leave the house, I will have one real girlfriend there. One of my best friends (and her family) from home live close by where we'll be. They're not on post with us, but close enough!
Regardless of everything I've read and heard, I am very excited about this move. I can not wait to see my husband. Our wedding day was the happiest day of my life. I want to spend the rest of my life making him as happy as I was that day! I just have this feeling that it's almost time. This has taken long enough. It can't possibly take much longer. It's almost been six months. I feel like any day now Jeremy is going to call and tell me it's all finished and I need to get on a plane! I know that I said I wasn't going to get overly excited, but the thought of seeing my husband soon does that to me! No story could ever be so awful that it could lessen that excitement!
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