The Beginning

On February 25, I married the love of my life, my very best friend, Jeremy.  Nine days later, Jeremy left for Japan, and, even though I knew in my head it wouldn't be long before I joined him there, my heart didn't get the message.  I fell apart for a few weeks, and I still have my days when I don't want to get out of the bed or see anyone, but for the most part, I'm back to my old self.  I don't have much choice but to keep it together anyway!  The only way I get to join my husband on the other side of the world is if I get all this crazy army paperwork filled out and turned in, then corrected and turned back in, then corrected again...then there's magically a new form to fill out...and that doesn't even cover the paperwork for the cats!  It's very frustrating, but at least it's all finally done!  Now, I just have to wait. 

I'm not the most patient person in the world, and I'm sure that I'm starting to drive Jeremy crazy, asking everyday if he knows anything yet.  I keep telling him how I'm ready to be there, ready to be settled in our home, ready to have an actual honeymoon!  I keep saying how I'm ready to really start our life together.  And, I am.  There's nothing that I want more than to be his wife, than to live our life, on the same continent, like normal people.  I think that we are going to have a wonderful adventure together.  Not many couples (American anyway) can say that they started their life together in Japan!  I know that we're going to make wonderful memories visiting amazing places together!  Before Jeremy left, he bought a tourism book on Japan.  We picked all kinds of places out that we wanted to visit together.  Since then, I added four roller coasters to that list!  I am excited!

Truth be told, though, I am also scared.  I've never lived anywhere other than different parts of the south.  I can't imagine that Japan is anything like Mississippi!  Rationally, I know that I'll be fine, I mean, I'll be with my husband, who loves me, and one of my best girlfriends will be less than an hour from me.  That's the thing about fear, though, it's not rational.  I'm nervous about being so far away from my family, from my Momma!  I'm scared to death about being surrounded by people that speak a language that I don't understand.  Honestly, I'm scared of a city the size of Tokyo.  I'm sure it'll make the city I love, my second home, New Orleans, look inconsequential in comparison.  And, then, there's the plane ride.  I'm not sure the exact number of hours my flight will be yet...15 hours, 17 hours?  I'm not sure.  All I do know for sure is that I don't want to be on a plane that long!  I don't know if there's enough valium in the world for a flight that long!  Our cats, our poor babies, will be on the plane as well.  I'm scared they'll hate me for putting them through that!  It's all just so much to take in! 

Wow!  It feels good to say that!  It's amazing how much it helps to just admit your fears!  The reality is, scared or not, I'm going to Japan.  As scared as I may be, there's nowhere I'd rather be than there.  With my husband.  So, I'm going to use this as my safe place.  If I'm scared, I'll admit I'm scared.  If I'm happy, I'll share that joy.  If I'm sad, or mad, I'll vent my frustrations.  I know how lucky I am to be taking this crazy adventure with Jeremy.  There is no one that I'd rather travel the world with.  He is my best friend, and we have fun together sitting at home doing nothing...I can't even imagine how much fun it'll be exploring a whole new culture together!  I can't wait to share stories and photos with my friends and family!